"All words are symbols that represent unspeakable realities. Which is also why words are magical." (Donald Miller tweet)

Monday, June 23, 2014

go ahead, mock

Cue the mockery. 

I'm about halfway through this wretched statistics class. I'm entirely certain it could be much, MUCH worse, with a different prof. And I'm reasonably certain I have an adequate brain. 

That being said, I truly find this class DIFFICULT. 

And THAT being said, I'm acknowledging that so far, I'm getting fantastic grades. 

Thus the mockery. "Pfft, Patti, you poser, if it's so hard, why the great marks?"

I don't know. That's the thing - I just don't know. I'm not complaining. Just not comprehending. 

But apparently I'm comprehending enough for the prof's standards. As I said to my mom, who mocked my claims of "utter despair" - "Maybe utter despair was the standard...?"

So I'm relieved. (And bewildered.)

And THAT being said, in tonight's lecture, I felt my brain achingly, painfully, slowly, reluctantly acknowledging some kind of foggy understanding of what was being said. 

And it occurred to me on the side, that perhaps this is how it feels to be slowly brainwashed. 

5 comments:

Piper.patrick@icloud.com said...

Statistically speaking, the odds are that you are, indeed, being brainwashed...but take heart, you have a 99 per cent chance of passing the course and an 81.3758 per cent chance of never having to use the stuff again...Padraig

Patti said...

That's the light at the end of the tunnel ... Never using it again. ;)

Chris Ewing-Weisz said...

I don't suppose I should ask why you're putting yourself through this if you hope/expect never to use it again? It's not exactly typical ministerial con ed... (Yes, I'm curious. Intrigued.)

Patti said...

Hi Chris :) The ENTIRE degree, I hope, is applicable - Sociology. It's certainly fascinating, at any rate. And I have a theory that a minister with a better understanding of society is maybe a better minister.

BUT... Not planning to do my own research particularly, so the statistical stuff probably will not be all that helpful. Although I admit perhaps a better ability to critique them as I see them. :)

Chris Ewing-Weisz said...

Too cool! I totally get taking a degree in sociobiology - very ambitious, very relevant. I guess you're doing a course or two at a time? All I've heard about so far is stats. Keep us posted about the rest: I'll get my "degree" by osmosis. ;-)