So this note on my desktop is not a picture of arrogance.
It is a picture of desperate self-encouragement.
The reason I was encouraging myself was because this class ... ugh. Did not enjoy it. At one point in one of the last lectures when I knew I was completely lost, the prof said calmly, "And ... if you didn't understand what I just said ... " (I looked up hopefully) "... well, I really don't care."
That's when I knew I was in trouble. So I studied hard, I really did. I made notes. I recorded myself talking through the notes. Then I listened to myself talking through the notes, and took notes as I listened.
Then I practiced all the evil calculations.
In the middle I listened to Billy Joel's "You May Be Right".
Because it occurred to me that I may actually be crazy.
Wrote the exam last night. Got lost leaving the building. Seriously - I actually got lost within the building. Ate a sub. Signed up for a summer course today.
"... but it just may be a lunatic you're looking for ..."
Also got a whopper of an estimate from my friendly neighbourhood plumber. Friendly because the estimate will help pay for his kids to go to university, I suspect.
Moment of irony this morning: I was reading this article early this morning, and realized that my brain was quietly noting the various components of the experimental design, critiquing the statistical significance of the results. Perhaps I learned something after all.
